Dear Dr. Whitehead,
I just wanted to write
back to say thank you for all you have done for me.
After being through the
experience of a failed penile extension operation it was great to
be dealing with yourself, someone I can trust.
This operation means
so much to me and I just hope it all turns out well - in fact it
is the key to my whole life.
My small penis made my
life come to an overnight stop a few years ago when I realized my
penis was not going to grow or develop any more. Since then I have
been battling to solve the problem via various medical professionals
who have all been unable to help or who bungled their treatment
At least now I have found
you I know the treatment and surgery I receive will be the best
in the world.
The added trouble with
this problem is that I have been too ashamed to tell anybody, which
makes it hard to deal with. It is hard mentally and physiologically
to bottle it up and hard practically to search for treatments and
cures without anybody finding out.
It is also hard to make
up excuses and lies about why I have stopped certain activities
I always wanted to join
the Army as my career choice and this became impossible when I realized
my penis was not going to develop or grow any more. After telling
everyone I ever met since I was a small child that I wanted this
career, it was difficult to have to make up excuses as to why I
had changed my mind suddenly.
I was also always playing
some sort of team sport every evening and weekend and had to lie
about why I quit all of those teams and clubs.
The thing I missed most
was the changing room camaraderie and male bonding associated with
these sports which was always something I enjoyed and was a big
reason behind me wanting to be in the Army as a career. I now felt
ashamed to even go to the urinals in a public place and have made
sure I never use these whilst other men are there too.
I had always enjoyed
having really close strong friendships with men. Not at all in the
sexual way, but just getting so close to someone that you become
solid, lifetime best friends who go through life together, know
each others lives inside out, and can talk about anything together.
I have now virtually cut myself off from all my friends and they
of course have no idea why.
It shattered my-self
esteem and I had zero confidence in myself. I felt a complete and
utter failure in everything. This affected every activity in my
whole life, especially in my part time job where I felt undermined,
even though it was only in a shop selling CDs.
I felt inadequate, inferior,
and ashamed. I lost all sense of masculinity and self respect.
All this led me to suffer
from clinical depression. As I would not tell anyone what the problem
was (and still haven't), I was prescribed Seroxat (Paxil or Paroxetine)
to lift me out of the depression.
This obviously hasn't
worked. The only way I will be cured is if I cure the underlying
problem - my small penis.
After telling Dr. Salkin
all of this he not only cleared me for surgery with you but he recommended
that I have it done.
He said surgery to enlarge
my penis is exactly what I need to help me both psychologically
and emotionally. Once I know the final results and outcome of the
enlargement, if all has gone well, he said my depression will disappear
I am sorry to have just
wasted your time with my life story.
I only meant to write
to say thank you but it is a great release to finally have someone
who knows about the problem that I can mention these things to.
I hope to be able to
report back to you with some great results and look forward to sending
Hopefully then I can
get my life back on track and start to live a proper, decent life.
Once again, thank
you very much for your help and assistance.
You have literally
saved my life.
Later the Patient Reported Back
The Allograft Dermal
Matrix Graft (Alloderm ®) which had been used to widen my penis has
been an absolute miracle. I expected it to feel slightly weird and
strange as though it wasn't really a part of me. I thought I would
not be able to feel it when I touched it. I could not have been
more wrong. It doesn't feel any different to how my penis used to.
I have been very impressed by this.
Also, there is no way
in the world anybody can tell that it is there. It doesn't look
lumpy and it doesn't have any contours - the appearance is absolutely
After my experience with
the penile surgery that went wrong, I had totally lost all faith
in doctors and felt I could not trust any of them.
You have restored that
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